Life is throwing me into her fire, again and again.
When I yell at her: “Can I have a break, bitch?!”… she kicks me down a cliff.
Life seems twisted, full of contradictions.
I feel immensely powerful. I feel incredibly small.
I feel an infinite compassion for human existence.
I feel a completely new level of knowing and loving myself, that is way beyond self worth.
I feel cut open in my core, I feel I’m bleeding with every step I take.
I am shining from within.
I feel great respect for people who are around me, I value friendship more than ever in my life.
I deeply care about the humans that I love.
I feel completely alone.
All at the same time.
Who am I in the midst of this paradox?
All there is to do… is surrender… more.
Because somewhere in those ashes I am found.
Photo by Bibbie Friman