He walked in and sat next to me. “I am scared,” – he said.
“I really want a deep relationship, but I’m so scared.
Once we start going deeper, I pull away and reject the woman, all because I’m so fucking scared that I will open my heart to her and then she will leave me.
At the same time I want it more than anything.
I want to relate, I want depth, I want connection. But I’m terrified of it all at the same time.”
His words hit me to my core.
I knew exactly what he meant.
I was crying. He was crying too.
I had nothing to respond to it.
I wish we all can come to be aware of our shadow – the unconscious patterns that arise from traumatic experiences in the past.
Then, at least we can recognise when the shadow is playing out, and make a choice accordingly.
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