I loved you so deeply, the thought of separation would have been unbearable.
You were everything to me. You were more precious than air, than any human needs. You were all I could ever think of. Simply being close to you satisfied every single desire, gave an answer to every question – your presence alone was in itself enough. It seemed as if it was beyond human capacity to love in this way and to such an extent. To love with such abandonment, without any sense of fear.
There could be nothing greater than this love.
And then that day came and you were gone. The woman in me was devastated. The initiate in me knew that it was all unfolding according to the divine plan.
Days passed and higher truth was revealed to me. A realisation came that even though I had been grieving the pain of separation, in reality… you had not left me.
Your physical form was no longer there. But You did not leave me.
As if having your beautiful physical form next to me was stopping me from experiencing the real magnitude of love.
And no, you never left.
Instead you placed an imprint of yourself in the essence of every living being, every thing, every phenomenon.
In a strange and mysterious way I realised that I will never be able to lose you.
And then you reappeared, briefly. And you said: “if you ever feel a longing to be with me please do one thing. Look at the very essence of that which is just in front of you. There you will find me. I have never left. And I will never leave. I am here, and I am closer than your breath.”
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