What happens after “yes”

5 years later… I’m leaving Lisbon. People keep asking me where I’m going.

I may be nomadic for a while, I may go to the US, I may stay in Portugal but settle down in nature, I may go back to Ibiza, maybe even back to Russia, or do I hear Mexico calling…

In all honesty – I don’t know. And that not-knowing is the most liberating thing.

I just rented out my home. The home where love and beauty are shining from every corner — where the light is right, the work flows easy, life flows easy. A space I built entirely for my practices, my pleasure, my peace.

I’ve loved that medicine.
The medicine of a life exquisitely fitted to me.

And still – the call is clear.
The call is to leap into the great unknown.

Once during a medicine ceremony I asked the shaman for more medicine (even though I was already flying). He seemed pleased, and then immediately paused. “Are you sure?” “Why are you asking?” “Because it can turn.” I wobbled. Got nervous… because back then, I wasn’t stable in my own consciousness. I didn’t trust it enough yet.

This is a different season.

What lets me leap now isn’t certainty about where I’m landing. It’s the inner stability, the trust in my own consciousness… I know I can trust myself to lead me to yet another level.

I’ve tasted the medicine of the perfectly fitting life.
Now I’m asking for another one.
The medicine of the wild unknown.
Another spiral of expansion.
Bigger dreams, bigger visions activating.

To receive the next medicine, I have to release the one I’d already mastered.

So… I don’t know where I’m going next.

But I know it’s time.

And I trust what’s coming, because I am fundamentally well🤍

PS and the “are you sure” that Life gives us sometimes… isn’t really a test of certainty… it is simply Life checking whether you are grounded enough to meet what comes after yes.