The Longing of your Soul

When did you stop dancing? When did you stop singing?  When did you stop doing things that open you up and really matter to you?

Sometimes we tell ourselves that it’s not the right time or that we are too busy.

Is it something that you often say?

I’ve been living in the desert for the last 7 months. And I’ve been really busy practicing meditation and other things that are important for me. These are the things of a more masculine realm. But I forgot something really important, something truly feminine, something that I used to do every day for the last years…

I didn’t make it a priority, because I thought that I’d done so much of it, it wasn’t a big deal.

But I felt less radiant, less sexual and less interested in life than I had felt in a long time.  The relationship with my man was getting less and less juicy and more and more heady…  I thought I was going through difficult times and I just had to wait till they passed…

The truth is – I forgot to do something that more than anything brings me into my body and makes me feel radiantly alive. I  did not dance. Looking back I feel like in not doing so I was betraying my soul.

And it’s true that sometimes we need to face certain things to grow, sometimes we need to go through hard times. But there is no reason not to do what you love doing. If the life that we are living doesn’t give us a chance to do what is truly important – well, screw that life.

I spent the last weekend dancing and doing other feminine practices in the company of many beautiful women. And now I feel like I’m back to life! The sun has started shining again. I feel a lot more like myself again!

Dance is a great source of happiness for me. When I dance nothing else matters, really. I become empty, present and free. When I dance I only want to know the Goddess, the real beauty and the real power of Shakti. I want to become a channel for a force that is so much greater than me, and yet I am part of it and then I don’t really know which one of them is me.  I surrender to her, I offer her my being, my love, my life. I dance to love, to open to love, I dance to be vulnerable, to trust, to surrender. I dance to break free.

Photo by @katarinabaliova